the fear of starting over doesn't affect me as much now, but i don't see the motivation of it either. it's like once bitten, twice shy. i need to settle myself first, and it's gonna take a long time.as they say, you need half of the time you'd spent in a rs.
one needs at least 6 months to heal before he could embrace a new rs. healing takes a long time. perhaps, 6 months isn't enough.
so when he asked me if he's my type, i knew i had to deal with it meticulously. last thing i wanna do is to hurt anyone. it sucks to hurt and be hurt.
perhaps a part of him still lives in me; perhaps i do still need some time.
but now, i just want to live simply.
love, leave it up to You.
i'm sorry.
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