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i think i told you before, i'm one who needs encouragement and assurance, sometimes reassurance. when things do not go well, i'm constantly looking something within me to blame. it's just me, and all i need is for someone to remind me not to be so hard on myself. all i need is for someone to remind me to smile more. all i need is to feel your care. but why do i feel even worse after our conversation? i cried. i actually cried after talking to you. because i don't feel any better. i wished you would ask me how i was in a sincere manner. and not just a casual remark.

it has been so long. it appears we forgot all the pleasantries. it almost appears that we are taking each other for granted. no more good morning smses. no more i miss you. no more i love you. just a simple sms to say that i am thinking of you will really warm my heart. but i get none from you. does it take so much for you to just type a few characters and tap the send button? good nigh calls seem so tiresome and cold. smses don't even begin with an endearing term. it seems you are treating me like a complete stranger. i don't understand why you can add :) at the end of your sentence on your fb post to your friends' wall.

i just don't get it. you mean i dont deserve any of those?

i just need someone to tell me i will be fine, that tomorrow will be better. please do not make me remind you to do that. it defeats the purpose.
it's unfortunate and strange that i get the concern from another friend instead.

shouldn't it be you instead?